목요일, 9월 29, 2005
hai..awful time to be feeling sick. luckily my fever wasnt that high. sorry angel, if u r reading this..i din mean to abandon u! =( td's lect was maxey's one also right?
sian..din really touch on my mb notes yet. n i still have tuit on sat n sun. poor old me. nvm, i m content enuf that i survived last wed already. One cant be too greedy huh. Anyway its mcq so lets just hope that the questions arent out of the world or anything. *crosses fingers*
Can friendships with cracks be mended u think?
Hmm...
수요일, 9월 28, 2005
Hmm kinda whined abit too much yesterday. Din mean for my blog to be a channel for venting my frustrations cos that was more suitable for my diary ba. So pple wun be influenced by my bad moods. Thats y i rarely show mood swings when im outside cos i just dun see the point of affecting your frens around u with ur own emotions.
Optimism is always the better choice.
Try la, hor.
Heh i was flipping thru my jc autograph book a couple of days back n quite alot of pple actually commented that i was bo chap, sky drop use as blanket, super calm n collected that kind..lol. I wonder if i still reflect that kind of image to my frens now? Think not le ba..
After my pharma n physio test le but i feel nothing. Think my CNS gong3 dai1 le. Filling my head with thoughts of 비 cos he's the only person who can make me happy now. He has such an infectious smile..heh.
今何も考えたくない。心は悲しいだから。
*tired*
화요일, 9월 27, 2005
Aint in a good mood now. im not angry, i just dun feel happy. dun feel estatic. dun feel euphoric. dun feel elated. dun feel overjoyed. dun feel like smiling. dun feel like doing anything. dun feel like studying even though i have 2 tests tmr. n i haven even do my kanji for tmr's lesson.
sianz.
no goals in life? most pple dun seem to have it either, dun they?
i get irritated when i have lots of things to do. n i dun have the time to do all unless i forego my sleep. then i get irritated all over again. this is a vicious cycle.
i hate it when i whine n when i grumble incessantly. but i cant help it. i wan to be optimistic now but i cant bring myself to do it.
today i regretted doing sth. it was really a careless action on my part. idiot. i shld hav considered the consequences. but i forgot. n i feel like a total idiot now.
this is bad. real bad. rain therapy doesnt even seem to work todae.
월요일, 9월 26, 2005
Sian this week is my slogging week again. Super detest wednesday. cos i have 2 tests, lessons straight from 8 to 5 n to top it off, i have 2 tuitions..wooOOoo~~ how superbly wonderful. No lunch n no dinner. I think i am turning into a zombie soon. maybe i will weigh a mere 42kg soon enuf. haha. issnt that just perfect? can slim down without even trying.
sheesh.
im so shagged emotionally now. err not in the sense that i fell out of love or pining for anyone that kind hor. in the sense that i hate being busy. so many things to do, so little time. hmm, this line sounds familiar. did i mention it before? n y doesnt each dae have 30 hrs?? its such a nicer number den 24 anywae.
I just wanna grumble my guts out. ok i dun think this phrase exists. lol. but i dun care now..disorganised thoughts are running thru my head now. cant think of anything except for what i still need to do. nothing can make me smile right now. heh ok, except for rain appearing in front of me now. ( i actually have 4 'nows' in a para)
what to do?
i miss my rain...
think i got 相思病 le. heh. *small ger*
수요일, 9월 21, 2005
Hai..supposed to be mugging right now but my mind keeps straying to thoughts of rain! Think i might really order rain's first n second album from yesasia after all after angel gave me the idea. Ydae i went to see the website n they haf free shipping worldwide provided the minimum order is above US49..which means i wld probably spend 100 sing dollars on my rain..haha ok abit mad le. but i dun mind~~ haha cos i saw his first concert dvd on the list as well which cost US34, tgt with his 2 albums which cost US10.99 each..
Ohh n i also saw the full house's key necklace, young jae's handphone accessory and a necklace with rain's name on sale..if they werent so ex, i would have bought the necklace with his name..=) but they r really super ex think its US69 or sth if i rem correctly..
Heh n i wanna go korea!! i know angel is with me on this..do u think we can go during dec this year? den so fun..hee. I wanna go at least once during winter, autumn n spring.
KK back to my enzyme kinetics...b-o-r-i-n-g~~~
토요일, 9월 17, 2005
Heh now my whole head is full of rain. Rain, rain, and more rain~ lol. I kinda miss the feeling of having an idol though. In the sense that it provides me with a kind of emotional support tt somehow makes me better whenever i look at him or listen to him. Ok, it may sound totally childish and superficial and immature and watsoever, but tts how i feel so i dun really care...
Not all the pple i used to like could let me feel this way wor. I rem the very very first singer that i liked in pri 5 or 6 was 张信哲. Heh at that time me n my frens were so mad about him that we would end up memorising all the songs from all his albums, then sang to each other after that. (i was still a small kid, u noe) Den in sec school, it became 陈晓东. Also went nuts over him n i even went to see him a couple of times. (i was still a teenager, u must rem) Hmm, of cos i still had a whole lot more of pple i went gaga over but it wasnt to that extent of them being able to give me the kind of feeling that i was looking for.
Well, after the craze over the 2 of them, it was only until my H.O.T and Shinhwa came by that really was the ultimate. Ok fine, i know by then i wasnt that young anymore to be spending $$ on this kind of stuff, but i admit, i did spent quite alot on them. Nah, i din spend a fortune on them by flying to korea n trying to catch them live or anything (but u bet i was dying to) But i did buy any single item on them that i could lay my hands on. The ex-est thing i guess was h.o.t's concert vcd which was imported n cost me i think 80 bucks. Back then, the korean shop at raffles place sold vcds, cds n magazines etc..so i was like loitering there ever so frequently. N the now defunct korean shop at far east was also in business then so i bought all of h.o.t n shinhwa's albums from there. Yap, from the very first album up to their last one.
Ah..those were the days. Lol. Frankly, i miss those days. Think i spent at least 0.5k on them..heh. But i din regret lah. They were one of the nicest things that happened to me. Kk, i know nobody will understand my obsession for them, but its okay. Been used to it since the time i started liking them. So when h.o.t disbanded in 2001, i was totally shattered. Sigh..stupid SM(entertainment). hate the stupid company. n loathe the even more stupid manager. lee soo man. pui~
Anyway, now i have 비!! Heh, he's super cute, super gorgeous, has super small eyes, can dance super well, has a super melting smile...hehe well, u get the story. I think i really sound like a small teenage ger here. Haha oh well, who cares..my blog shld reflect what i feel doesnt it...
Oops..one whole entry abt rain..=p
N last but not least, his ever so cute face~~ *gRinz*
N the pic with song hae gyo... super chio also!! heh..i love the both of them...
일요일, 9월 11, 2005
Heh today was a busy day cos i practically watched tv from morning 9am to 5pm! Heh..kk this coming from someone who was just complaining about the lack of time to mug doesnt seem very right. Abit 说不过去 but i dun really care lah. Anywae my unstuck in time is coming to an end this monday so next week onwards i just need to concentrate on my tfkc n full house only. So not so bad..(self-consolation) Haha..
Hmm, speaking about unstuck in time, the plot really got me baffled. There are so many loopholes in the show! Hiaks. For eg, who is ding zhiyun? N how come nicole says ding guoshen blows her birthday candles out every year when she was hypnotised n not lei guojun? N how can u stop someone from shooting u jus by hypnotism?? Lol that was the ultimate. The whole story just dun seem to connect very well, but i got to concede, it really makes u wanna know the outcome esp at the end when u are dying to see if the dad got retrack his steps anot. But im so sorry angel..the show finishing le but i still dun like morning sir..oops cant recall his name now..heh. i still cant bring myself to like older guys. lol.
After unstuck i watched tfkc. Hmm the plot is picking up ba cos the first few episodes were mainly abt 协志 so i was pretty bored cos dun really like him lor. But now his left hand is 废了 so now the main focus is on training 仁甫, which certainly appeals to me more. heh. but i dun deny, the fighting scenes are not very good. I shall not say bad cos afterall im still a 5566 supporter. haha. kk i noe im too old!! stop reminding me that.
There's erm a child in everyone of us. My teddy bear workshop instructor told me that that time when i went for the workshop. cos i was the only non-adult there, if u get what i mean.
Anyway there are 2 pple i cant stand in tfkc. One is 仁甫's supposed mum in the show, as well as 协志's character. Wah his mum hor...hai i dunno how to describe in words. Character cmi, temper cmi, attitude to 仁甫 cmi, n looks cmi. Ok, im making a personal attack but still..she treats 仁甫 so bad i cant help it. N now im beginning to like 小葵 more den the other sweety ger. Cos she's so poor thing in the show..jus hope 仁甫 will finally requite her love someday.
Last but not least, i watched full house!! Heh a wonderful ending to my tv marathon. Rain n song hae gyo is such a cute couple!! heh heh..*beams brightly* I like rain so much now..haha. Think i might go n get his album after all. Lol. =) (angel, dun censure me!) I think im such a flower eat sometimes..ohh n me n angel both think that kw resembles rain..esp the single eyelids n small eyes..hehz. but i like it most when rain stood besides song hae gyo cos he's like super tall n well built. N hae gyo seems petite in comparison..v cute! As usual..he kissed her...-dreaming awae again-
Ok, after being silly and drooling over rain ( i meant it purely as an analogy, thankew cos i dun drool.), i wanna broach on a less gay, i mean less happy topic.
Firstly, i know right now my piggy is going through a rough patch..I noe i may not be there physically for her always but i wanna let her know that no matter what happens, me n ry will be on her side. Ger, cheer up k! i understand it's hard..but theres no way u can get through this if u let urself wallow in misery any further. The guy wun know, n he wun care. So why bother to mope n cry over someone who dun deserve it? Rem ger what i used to tell u..? U deserve better k. Nobody ought to treat u like that n if he does, he's a total jerk. Wash ur face, wipe away ur tears, n smirk in his face cos it aint the end of the world. No matter how long it takes for ur wound to heal, it will heal eventually. So whats the big deal? The most impt thing is that the relationship did occur before and u were happy once. the outcome is dispensable.
I admit, i cant n dun have the right to ask u to forget him immediately cos i doubt i will be able to accomplish it myself. but at least try k? Even a baby step will amount in the long run. *hugs* U are a strong ger in my eyes n i hope u wun disappoint me..
화요일, 9월 06, 2005
Hai its a busy busy week recently!! There are just simply too many things i need to do and i cant help but procrastinate. Sianz. =( Hate it when im not in control of my life, n it certainly is displaying signs that it wishes to stray out of my hands. 来。。听话，好吗？ しまった。
so many things to do, so little time....arghhh...back to my 100million question..why cant each day have 30 hrs?? 24 is barely enough for me..
토요일, 9월 03, 2005
Feel like slacking right now. (ok fine, i feel like slacking every min of my life, but tts not the point here) Heh..i had a very interesting dream last night wor. Think must be the after effect of watching too much Sunshine Heartbeat. I dreamt that i went to play volleyball with my friends on this large field n we actually used giant tennis balls instead of the usual volleyball to play. N i kept complaining that the field was too large cos we only had 2 players on each side so in the end kept running here n there.
Heh ok it doesnt sound half as interesting as i make it out to be, but in the dream it was lah. Just use some imagination k. Haha. Hai, watching the show makes me kinda regret not staying with volleyball in st nicks. Why did i quit n go n join CO instead?? (oops, no offense to CO for angel n junrou..=p) CO is ok lah but its not exactly what i want i think. Esp since i ended up playing zhonghu which i have null affinity for. At least give me pipa or guzheng mah...sigh.
Feel like i wasted one-fifth of a century away accomplishing nothing in my life. How uh. Feel like im good at nothing..n im so far far away from my ideal gal. Think if i have a daughter next time i will have pretty high expectations of her. Hmmm lemme think of my 100% perfect gal of my dreams. (FYI, im not a les, if u must noe.)
Here goes my list:
1) Big round eyes, double eyelids
2) small nose ( i dunno how to describe but there's this phenotype i like..eg. like maggie q's nose i think. i mean i can recognise but i duno how to describe in words)
3) long sleek preferably dyed brown hair
4) mouth n ears standard ba no preference..
5) perfect complexion
6) perfect smile ( u noe that kind u see on jap gers..)
7) can play piano well
8) can dance well
9) petite (optimal height = 160cm)
10) exudes an air of sweetness n cuteness (not the mature kind of chio)
Heh ok better not write too much or else like not very realistic le. Er except for 7 and 8, the rest of the conditions shld be able to be fulfilled ba. Of cos not on me i noe. Hmm, cant think of any examples right now actually. But there are lah. Maybe like the ger who acted sailormars? heh think this one only angel will noe who im referrring to. Anywae i have her in my jap mag n her name is keiko kitagawa. 北川景子。
U can going her official website at http://www.kitagawakeiko.com/ but i dunno why i somehow cant download it. Seems to be hanging on me.
Anyway, yap she is the perfect epitome of my ideal ger. Chio right?? N she's exactly 160cm! =) Dunno if she can dance or play the piano though but if i can have half of her looks i dun care...lol. Will think of more examples in my next post....
ps/ anybody wants to play volleyball with me??
pps/ anybody wants to go japan with me??
ppps/ =p..
希望应该是一个不能成真的愿望吧。